Thursday, January 7, 2010

one foot in front of the other ..

sometimes i get the feeling my purpose is not to wonder why... not to question.. to just keep putting one foot in front of the other and believing, trusting that everything will work out in the end ..

wednesday last as we were prepping for the canton show i was hit with a stomach virus that forced me into deciding to not attend the opening days of the show - luckily rod and our new partner, sherry, were able to get things packed, loaded and ready to transport - while i lie on the bed writhing in pain, confident the end was near .. the plan was i would join the party in progress on friday or saturday ..

so - rod & sherry were at the warehouse - i was home in the bed - my sister and her husband were watching television - and the dogs were with them in the living room - suddenly i heard the dogs barking like mad - i assumed someone was at the door - as they don't like strangers at their door - then i heard my brother in law calling my name - i thought maybe it was my sisters home health care nurse and i needed to retrieve my share of the dog pack from the living room - so i hurried as best i could to the living room - to find my BIL on the phone with a look of sheer terror on his face and i glanced across the room to my sister in her recliner and she was in full blown seizure mode .. now, my sister has only had one seizure in her life and she was in the hospital at the time ..and that was over a year ago .. and i was no where around at the time .. and i have never ever been near when someone had a seizure .. i knew absolutely nada .. other than someone i loved and cared about was having a seizure .. as my BIL talked to 911 .. i knelt near her .. the force of the seizure had thrown the recliner into full reclining position.. her left leg was extended straight as a board .. her toes were curling .. her head was thrown back ... her teeth were clinched tight tight tight .. so tight her gums were bleeding .. her eyes were rolled back in her head .. and there is no other way to describe it other than she was sputtering and spitting .. and hissing .. i remember her hissing ... and all i could do was stroke her arm and keep repeating to her she would be alright .. i remember her dog was in her lap and refused to budge during the seizure but once it was over, she calmly hopped down out of her lap and let the ems workers do their thing .. also, while my BIL was trying to tell the 911 operator where we were located, he dropped the phone and got disconnected and had to start all over ..i kept thinking i needed to get something in her mouth to keep her from biting her tongue .. but what? .. there was nothing around .. other than the television remote .. and the thought of that only made me laugh to myself (yeah, i know, my sister is having a seizure and i am laughing - how sick am i?) when i thought of trying to explain why i shoved a remote control in the mouth of someone having a seizure .. she did get to the hospital, spent the 1st day in ER and is now in a room .. she is doing better .. she had also had a severe stomach virus during Christmas and after .. and to top it off she wasn't eating much of anything .. and she is also diabetic .. the doctors said her levels of calcium, magnesium and potasium dropped to life threatening levels .. also when she first started to have the seizure, my BIL noticed her out of the corner of his eye and saw her jerk, then what looked to him like she was falling out of her chair .. so he reached out and grabbed her arm .. and broke her upper arm between the shoulder and elbow ..

is it selfish to say i feel worn out .. just emotionally wrung out .. i mean this is my blog and it is about me, right?

so, since i couldn't go to visit her at the hospital right away .. i spent a lot of time laying in bed working on getting well.. my stomach virus turned to a head cold and cough .. while i lay in bed . i stared at this antique print - as it was propped up on a shelf near the tv .. i starred at it so long, it began to remind me of people i knew .. does this look like anyone you know? .. i won't embarrass them by saying who it reminds me of .. but to me it is uncanny .. so, starring at this image and praying for guidance helped me get through several very rough days .. i believe in the power of prayer .. and Sister should be coming home in the next day or so ..

so, how did canton go? rod and sherry did very well and were very pleased... they met a lot of fun people and said they had the best time .. and it felt good to me when they told me people were asking about me .. we did sell the slipcovered chairs .. and i understand from both rod and sherry that i have my entire month mapped out on sewing pillows and slipcovers and lampshades ... we got a different space for the next show .. we will be in ARBOR II, spaces 203 & 204A .. lots of cool ideas for the next show .. so be sure and stay tuned .. right now we will be listing some things in our etsy shop while the weather keeps everyone locked in ... we are meeting some people at the warehouse this saturday .. so hopefully, the weather will be back to normals ..

i know there is more to say .. but my mind is numb right now .. if you asked a question i have yet to answer, please remind me .. i am not ignoring you, i just forget things fairly easily ..



  1. Troy, I'm so glad you are feeling better, and my first thought was how fortunate that your sister had her husband and you there to help her. What a scary, scary thing to go thru, and yes, that, on top of your feeling crummy can really wring us out!
    Glad you had a new partner to help out. What great timing. Sounds like you will be busy, so stay well, and take care of yourself!

  2. p.s. send my love and well wishes to your sis! She will be in my prayers.

  3. Troy I am so sorry all that happened, but at least the outcomes look positive. I know diabetics have to be so careful when they get sick it messes with their systems a lot. ANYWAY so glad to hear you are feeling better, your Sis is doing much better and that the show went well. REST and then you will be able to think clearer.


  4. Thanks for sharing all of this with me last night during our chat. It's just as harrowing the second time around. I'm so glad to hear that you sister is doing better, and you, too.

    I know you likely know who that Saint is that you were gazing upon, but it's St. Therese, better known as The Little Flower. She was my confirmation saint when I converted 12 years ago, and I got to know quite a bit about her all too brief life. She died extremely young, but before her death, was quoted as saying "I will spend my Heaven doing good upon earth."

    I believe she was watching out for you, and Sister, too.

    Take it easy in the days leading up to the next Canton.

    Big hugs,

  5. Troy, I just started following your blog not long ago. It is wonderful by the way. I have got to get to Canton.
    I am so sorry about your sister. Sometimes it's just a good thing to crawl under the covers and hide for awhile. Even when you don't have the stomach flu. I don't think you're being selfish at all. You have been through a lot! I think that we all get so busy tending to those around us that we feel guilty when we need to tend to ourselves. AND sometimes just having a good cry helps!!

  6. Hi! Yes, have a good cry - that is all worth a good sob session - it actually does help. That's just too much stress in a life and death sort of way. Thank God your sister was not alone at the time of the seizure! I know the Lord heard your prayers and I will also pray for all three of you today. I know this was horrendous for her husband too.

    Wonderful that ya'll did so well at Canton, so onward.

    Have a Beautifully Blessed 2010...

    Cynthia K. (Beauty and Blessings)

  7. Troy, glad you and your sister are better. I missed seeing you in Canton but understood you needed to be better. I've so enjoyed the things I bought. I'll look for you at the next Canton!

  8. thank ya'll - very much -

    anne - i did not know who she was - just that she reminded me of someone and she was pretty -

    theresa - sorry i missed you and glad you like the stuff - rod said you got the birdcage - isn't it cool? - also, for the next canton - our new space is across from where judy hill used to set up - our friends howard & sharon are setting where judy used to ..


  9. Troy,
    Sorry to hear that you and your sister have been under the weather! Hoping you are feeling better soon. Seizures are scary to watch, hubby has them occasionally, usually at night when my mind doesn't work really well. Hang in there!

  10. Hi Guys and Sis. I'm glad to hear you both are getting better. I can only imagine how scary must have been to see you sister having a seizure. You probably have been told by now, just making sure you know. Trying to put any object in the mouth of a seizing person will and can cause more damage than good. It is not possible to swallow your own tongue. People used to believe this was possible, not. Bitting your tongue is a high posibility, but a spoon or any other object can knock teeth off and actually cause more damage to your entire mouth. Most importantly try to observe and time the episode. You can help by preventing her from injuring herself with objects around her. Hopefully you won't have to go thru this again. I will specially say a prayer for Sis since having a seizure episode can cause both physical and emotional strain. God healed my son from epilepsy, he can heal Sis too. I will pray for you and your partner, so God will lead and guide you and your plans for 2010. Hopefully I will see you guys again. Blessings, Marta.
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  11. A horrid stomach flu hit my family too. I honestly thought it was going to kill me, so I understand what you were going through.
    I am so glad you and your BIL were home when your sis went into seizure. It is scary to see someone going through one. You made me laugh when you talked about the TV remote! I love that her dog stayed right there with her. Oh, and the vintage picture of St. Therese is beautiful.

    Nita Jo

  12. Troy, isn't it amazing how God will put us where we need to be and He wanted you home with your sister. Sorry the flu was the chain that kept you there, but would anything else have kept you from working? You were there when she needed you...what a blessing. I'm glad the outcome looks so positive and I'll keep you and your family in my prayers that all things continue to improve. Beautiful words...beautiful post.
    P.S. I see the resemblance too.

  13. Troy so sorry to hear you caught the flu, but I am glad you are starting to feel better...I am also a huge believer in the fact that things happen for a reason, you were supposed to be there...on that that moment..when your sister needed you most...You were where you were meant to be. You will soon be all well and there will be many more sales...I think that is what you call them..and you will have a great time and your sister will always know just how much you love is a beautiful thing to read your post and feel how much you love her. May you both Be loved. Besos, Rose

  14. Oh Troy,
    I was looking forward to hearing all about your Canton experience. Knowing it would be great! I should Have checked in sooner. I am so sorry. I am so glad you were there for Sister. There is always a reason. My prayers are with you and your whole family.
    smiles, alice

  15. you poor thing ... this was our first visit ... I was on the edge of my seat ... hope all is well

  16. I totally understand, I am in a similar space right now. Love the pic of St. Therese, so glad she was there to comfort you.