one foot in front of the other ..

sometimes i get the feeling my purpose is not to wonder why... not to question.. to just keep putting one foot in front of the other and believing, trusting that everything will work out in the end ..

wednesday last as we were prepping for the canton show i was hit with a stomach virus that forced me into deciding to not attend the opening days of the show - luckily rod and our new partner, sherry, were able to get things packed, loaded and ready to transport - while i lie on the bed writhing in pain, confident the end was near .. the plan was i would join the party in progress on friday or saturday ..

so - rod & sherry were at the warehouse - i was home in the bed - my sister and her husband were watching television - and the dogs were with them in the living room - suddenly i heard the dogs barking like mad - i assumed someone was at the door - as they don't like strangers at their door - then i heard my brother in law calling my name - i thought maybe it was my sisters home health care nurse and i needed to retrieve my share of the dog pack from the living room - so i hurried as best i could to the living room - to find my BIL on the phone with a look of sheer terror on his face and i glanced across the room to my sister in her recliner and she was in full blown seizure mode .. now, my sister has only had one seizure in her life and she was in the hospital at the time ..and that was over a year ago .. and i was no where around at the time .. and i have never ever been near when someone had a seizure .. i knew absolutely nada .. other than someone i loved and cared about was having a seizure .. as my BIL talked to 911 .. i knelt near her .. the force of the seizure had thrown the recliner into full reclining position.. her left leg was extended straight as a board .. her toes were curling .. her head was thrown back ... her teeth were clinched tight tight tight .. so tight her gums were bleeding .. her eyes were rolled back in her head .. and there is no other way to describe it other than she was sputtering and spitting .. and hissing .. i remember her hissing ... and all i could do was stroke her arm and keep repeating to her she would be alright .. i remember her dog was in her lap and refused to budge during the seizure but once it was over, she calmly hopped down out of her lap and let the ems workers do their thing .. also, while my BIL was trying to tell the 911 operator where we were located, he dropped the phone and got disconnected and had to start all over ..i kept thinking i needed to get something in her mouth to keep her from biting her tongue .. but what? .. there was nothing around .. other than the television remote .. and the thought of that only made me laugh to myself (yeah, i know, my sister is having a seizure and i am laughing - how sick am i?) when i thought of trying to explain why i shoved a remote control in the mouth of someone having a seizure .. she did get to the hospital, spent the 1st day in ER and is now in a room .. she is doing better .. she had also had a severe stomach virus during Christmas and after .. and to top it off she wasn't eating much of anything .. and she is also diabetic .. the doctors said her levels of calcium, magnesium and potasium dropped to life threatening levels .. also when she first started to have the seizure, my BIL noticed her out of the corner of his eye and saw her jerk, then what looked to him like she was falling out of her chair .. so he reached out and grabbed her arm .. and broke her upper arm between the shoulder and elbow ..

is it selfish to say i feel worn out .. just emotionally wrung out .. i mean this is my blog and it is about me, right?

so, since i couldn't go to visit her at the hospital right away .. i spent a lot of time laying in bed working on getting well.. my stomach virus turned to a head cold and cough .. while i lay in bed . i stared at this antique print - as it was propped up on a shelf near the tv .. i starred at it so long, it began to remind me of people i knew .. does this look like anyone you know? .. i won't embarrass them by saying who it reminds me of .. but to me it is uncanny .. so, starring at this image and praying for guidance helped me get through several very rough days .. i believe in the power of prayer .. and Sister should be coming home in the next day or so ..

so, how did canton go? rod and sherry did very well and were very pleased... they met a lot of fun people and said they had the best time .. and it felt good to me when they told me people were asking about me .. we did sell the slipcovered chairs .. and i understand from both rod and sherry that i have my entire month mapped out on sewing pillows and slipcovers and lampshades ... we got a different space for the next show .. we will be in ARBOR II, spaces 203 & 204A .. lots of cool ideas for the next show .. so be sure and stay tuned .. right now we will be listing some things in our etsy shop while the weather keeps everyone locked in ... we are meeting some people at the warehouse this saturday .. so hopefully, the weather will be back to normals ..

i know there is more to say .. but my mind is numb right now .. if you asked a question i have yet to answer, please remind me .. i am not ignoring you, i just forget things fairly easily ..

laterz,
troy